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Name: Kelly
Birthday: 2/19/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Jesus, Norway, My family, hair, music, teaching little kids, all my unit c girls!!!
Expertise: ummm- some might say cutting/coloring hair
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  kellbell4031
Member Since:
6/2/2005
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| I haven't written in forever, mostly because my life is insanely busy. But God has been teaching me a lot, and last night I just needed to put some thoughts down. so here they are. written at two in the morning...
So many times, my Father teaches me through trials.
I’ve recognized this for several years, but recently, I have realized that sometimes God teaches me through the same (or very similar) trial twice.
This is NOT necessarily because I horribly screwed up the first time (although I probably did). It is because He still has more to teach me.
He wants my responses to be more Christ-Like and centered on His faithfulness.
He wants me to focus on serving others in the midst of my trials.
He wants me to remember that “even the darkness is not dark to Him” (ps.139), and He“will work out His plans for my life” (ps. 138).
He wants to teach me the depths of my depravity and the even deeper depths of His Love. He wants me to understand that I don’t know or hold the future, but I DO know the one who has planned it all since before time began.
He wants me to rest. Truly.
He wants me to run to the cross. Often.
He wants to teach me to pray constantly and fervently. He wants to teach me to Love those I don’t understand and not to let the misunderstanding grow into bitterness.
He wants me to stop, rest, and remember His leading hand. Oh, God! Don’t let me miss your teaching in the midst of my busy life!
I somehow think that I can handle things on my own.
I somehow desire for these hard days just to be done.
Yet, You, my Father, are so patient with me.
You hold me, and lead me, and guide me.
Even though I squirm, and wander, and fight.
Your faithfulness is renewed with the sunrise.
Though mine seems to hide in the night.
Oh, God teach me to rest and trust and pray.
I want to be fervent and determined in your strength
In this test of faith, may I glorify your name.
Your plan amazes me.
You know exactly how to mold me.
I am only the clay, so why wouldn’t I trust
the hands of the potter?
In the end I’ll be refined and full
So, take this clumped gray glob
and scrap away what won’t bring you glory
as I become a masterpiece, keep my eyes on the Master.
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| Isaiah 40:31
They that wait on the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not faint.
I'm so thankful for this truth and for my faithful Father.
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| grad school application in the mail - check
running well this week - check (5k today! woohoo!)
midterms -- crap.
yeh. so my life for the next 4 days will consist of studying.
other than that, i'm really excited about life right now... I'm just waiting to see what God is gonna do with me.
it's gonna be good. in fact, it's gonna be amazing. I just have to trust. and wait. and take opportunities He gives.
yeah. i'm ready.
the mystery is unraveled in HIM
as HE scripts your life to be lived
for His glory and to reflect
the radiance of HIS character.
-Joseph Stowell
I LOVE fall. But it's also hard. but God is pouring out His grace.
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| right now, i know two things:
1. God has an amazing plan
2. God is faithful to keep me
i just have to walk step by step.
more later - now, it's time for Systematic chapter summaries. oh yeah.
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i'm going to apply to grad school real soon. at Moody Bible Institute in Chicago, Illinois.
wow. that just made me really excited! um, yeah. I don't know if i'll get accepted, but i'm applying.
i even looked at apartment pricing... so if you think about it, you can pray for wisdom for me regarding my future.
i love it. the world is open to me. i just want to do the right thing.
i want to be in my Father's will.
i just can't get this Chicago thing off my mind...
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